Awoken in the minds eye, there is nothing more motivating than dreams. Still there is more that must be explored, for if it is only a reflection of self then it is not complete.

Walking in spring of youth so many would say they would take and care for; these blooms that now hide from their view. Neglected in the desire of the singular flower, the tree is dormant awaiting the next season. Flowered in the memories my care now goes into the roots, and trunk of life’s tree.

Just the view of petals is not enough to determine the branches that should stay; the prettiest blooms often take the most energy away from the trunk. Removal of that branch will save the tree from eventual petrifaction.

Make no mistake, the tending is not for you to do. It is mine alone and in the joy of spring, it shall be my choice of whom to share them with.

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Through the trials and time, there comes hibernation.

I have spent too much time in the hopes of others. Now it is time for my own rest, for reflection of what is and what could be. There is a point where you cannot explain who or what you are, others will interpret you how they will. Far too much effort they expect in what they would have you do to prove your worth.

Instead of letting their winds destroy the simplest efforts, time is now spent tending my own roots. It matters not what is said, for if it is not from my own words, it has nothing to do with me. Chatter that comes from their own insecurities will always blow onto anything that is not firmly rooted as they wish they could be.

Should you think my slumber is inactive you will find yourself corrected when the time is appropriate. For that is one thing I have more than most: patience and time.

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HONOR

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To be seen for me is a very rare gift.

Once by ImagesInWords when she asked me to assist in Eternal.

Keep your eyes opened you just might miss something. Her own attempts to grow and thrive are an example of how we can succeed and how we can over-prune. Complete in the perfection of the attempt, if only more would follow in her example. Must be a balance thing.

The second by The Prince when I was first asked to be a Dominar, and then again when asked to be a Master Vampire.

Watching and evaluating he is constantly aware of his domain, in a manner that most of us never realize. Do not think that silence equals ignorance, as it will be your grievous error.

“Simple,” you might think of me for listing the honours of a virtual environment, still I have more that is mine to know. I find the importance is to express my gratitude to those listed, as here is where it is relevant.

Consider it my attempt to not neglect the other gardeners and their own attempts in their efforts. Being grateful is not the same as being prideful.

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Here it seems my spirit soars.

Waking from what should have been pleasant dreams, I find depravity and horror.

Now it will change, indeed no more shall I bend in the direction of others.

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MY LIGHT * MY LAUGHTER

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Here are some quotes from Vampire Rave that amuse me:


Jamie~"Namaste Motherfuckers."

Requiem~"Wow. That even smells stupid."

HTM~“I am an expert at making hot things wet.”

Stabb666~“I feel so proud to have three in a row. Like a porn actor, one dick after another.”

MrD~“Ding Dong.. No more bitch.. rock on!!”

Jhelai ~“Oooh... Melodies? They're as drugs to ones imagination.
Except overdoses don't tend to kill you.”

Daire~"How can you hate reading? You are reading this right now."

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DO NOT TRY TO CYBER WITH ME...

If you do, know this:

I view you the same way I view a puppy trying to hump my leg;
pathetic, annoying and sticky.

:::KICKS:::

It seems that further definition is required. You are welcome to express an opinion to me, but know that I am not here to receive comments on my looks.

I am here to discuss, learn and enjoy my time here. Should you bite or message me, please have something to say, as if you still attempt to get in my cyber pants you will find yourself blocked.

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JOURNALING

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There I share more of the day to day me. Should you wish to know more about who I am, that would be the place to learn of my mistakes, follies and growth.

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Everyday each of us starts out with uncertainty. What we do is confirmation of our character. All of us are blind to the full perception of the other.

Because of this, I tread carefully but firmly in who I wish to become.

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Part of the group, yet fully removed.

Extraordinarily ordinary.

The cards that I have been dealt have taken me many places I never imagined, and still I long for more.

I’m not full of virtues and noble qualities, I love that is all, but I love strongly exclusively, steadfastly. ~Impromptu

If you don't want to know, don't ask.